Kids are gone for a week.... sniff sniff :(

Well my kids just left to go with their dad for a week.  I had tears that I was not expecting.  I am a mom who dearly loves her children, but has learned to really appreciate the silence of the breaks.

This is the first time that I will be without the kids in my home for longer than a couple of days. Last year when they went with their dad, the kids didn't go anywhere, unlike this time, they are leaving the country.  Last year on my week away from the kids, I saw them for about 12 hours over a few days.  There wasn't an emptiness when they were gone.

So now what DO I do with 8 days to myself??  Well, plan number one, go for dinner with my Dad, then over to a friends for drinks.  Tomorrow a very long walk with a girlfriend in the river valley.

That sounds like a good start.

So I will take this week and enjoy the break and so look forward to the FaceTime conversations I will get to have with my kids while they are away.

I will also listen to my music loud, if I want to, sleep in, go out for walks, go for drinks and basically do what ever I please...without having to worry about anyone, other than me and my dog!

Life is Good

I am sitting here watching my boys play Plants vs. Zombies on xBox.  They are talking in a code language, I'm sure, because I can't understand half of what they are saying.

This makes me happy.

Life gets so busy, that sometimes you forget to appreciate these silly moments.

Things as simple as listening to my boys, having my music on, and having a glass of wine.  Life couldn't get much better.  Having my daughter home would add to my smiles.  Being an early teenager, she has been hanging with a girlfriend all day.

I am blessed to be able to appreciate the good in my life.  I have had, as I'm sure many people have had, negative things happen in my life.  Brother passing, divorce, something traumatic as a child (blocking that), yet still life is good.  Here's why.

I now have a good relationship with the father of my children.  He is a wonderful man who has found someone who makes him happy.  Despite the fact that I miss my brother all the time, I know that he is hanging around in a good place.  I appreciate all that I am given.  I have my three kids with me, happy, and ready to give Mommy a hug at anytime!  Can't get better than that!

Time to Blog

I used to wonder what people blogged about. "Is it like twitter, where you get to vent?" maybe. I would like to blog about my life, as it is today.
I will start by saying right now in my life, I am overwhelmed, but happy. I used to think I couldn't be happy without the husband and "normal" life of marriage. I was wrong.
When the marriage was done after 14 years together I wondered WHAT NOW??

First, I had to learn to make my own decisions for myself, but still share decisions about my kids, with their dad. My three amazing kids. I will get to them later.

I hadn't worked in roughly 12 years. Holy moly! I have to get a job!!

Here we are at my children. Three. Julia 13, Evan 10 and Logan 7. Each amazing, wonderful kids!

My Evan has been battling an autoimmune disease for 5 years. It presents itself as Systemic Onset Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis. This is is diagnosis. This disease has not been typical for one day!

Evan is sometimes an active 10 year old. Sometimes he has to be carried upstairs, because the pain in his ankles or knees or whatever is ailing him that day is too painful. He generally misses a great deal of school, so I need to work at home. (My job, I will get to another blog.) Did I mention that Evan is so smart, loving and sweet! He will still get a snuggle in when he can! He's passionate about space, science, math and really anything he puts his mind too! He couldn't swim. All his friends were swimming in the deep end. I told him he couldn't go in the deep end because he wouldn't take swim lessons (did I mention he's stubborn!). Well Evan spent the next two hours in the shallow end teaching himself to swim! Awesome!

Julia is also anything but typical. So kind hearted, smart, beautiful! Takes everything to heart. Hates when Mommy or Daddy are mad at her. Feels she needs to keep the peace, but stirs the pot with her littlest brother more than anyone else!

Logan is my baby and so so sweet. He can make me smile one minute and infuriate me the next. Smart, funny, so loves his mommy!! If Logan gets a minute beside me when I am still, he gets in as much snuggle time as he can!

Again, my children are amazing! I am happy... So much happens in one persons life! That's another BLOG!!